I was sick these few days, flu didn't getting better even after taking medicine. Couldn't sleep very well at night, my mind was just wondering here and there as I close my eyes. Went to visit my grandpa yesterday, his sickness still the same. Lying down on his bed, motionless, resting peacefully. His weight has been reducing since his sickness, white beard grows on his chin and upper lip. My mom tried to wake him up to remind our visiting. He was awaken, motionless moving his eyes to pay attention to us. I could see that he was trying to say something as he could barely lift his lips to say something. I believed he is very tired so we leaved him back to rest. Had chat with my uncle and aunt about his condition. I guessed we have nothing else to do about it but just leave it to time.
I can still remember by the time we left, I walked towards him, sat down on his bed, holding his hand to say goodbye. I could notice his eyes are trying to focus on me with moving his head. At the instant moment, I could feel the sadness deep inside my heart. ='( I dunno what I could say more to him because I could see that he was tired and needed more rest.
Grandpa, I wish I could say Happy Chinese New Year to you in the next 2 months time. Will you wait for me? I know I can put too much hope, but I guess I need to have faith. I will pray for you and I will hope miracle will happen.... I dunno.... I have gotta be prepared.
~Desmond~ 11.30pm 141209
Miracle?
What can I do now?
Grandpa's sickness is getting worst =( He can hardly talk, walk and eat. According to my uncle, there is nothing we can do but to leave it to time. I'm so blank now... I don't know what I can do... I don't what I can imagine... I'm so confusing right now... so sad... so blamed myself that I didn't pay him a visit just now. I hate myself getting sick and miss this chance to see him. I dunno I can still see him or not... ='( so sad now... so wish to talk to someone...
~Desmond ='(~ 11.41pm 101209
End of This Semester
Wow... finally end of the semester, after all the tortures from piles of assignments and exams. 14 weeks were fast though. Never thought it is the end of it. Next year will be my final semester. Wondering what might the challenges will come. Of cause, apart from studies, my final year project will step in too. Well, it gonna be tough though. Anyway, "Never Give Up" is my motto. Whatever the challenges are, I'm ready to face it.
Talk about challenges and FYP, I dunno if you guys might thought I'm an idiot or fool. I have chosen Geotechnical as my field. People says it is not easy, difficulties gonna come to you as many as it has. Hm... I know it is not easy. I like Geo though, but not as much as I love Bridge Engineering. I did think of getting Structural but too bad the lecturer might only to come out topic on connections especially steel connections. =( Another reason I choose Geo is because I wanna learn more from Dr. Ong (my idol, my favorite lecturer). Even now after the exam finished, next week I gonna be working with him. I volunteer myself to work with him this semester break so to learn from him. Plus, the works I gonna take from him might gonna be my FYP too. =)
I can still remember that day when I asked his permission to join him for the holidays works, he was very pleased to accept my involvement. He told me the projects I gonna work on will be from the Kuching Wastewater Sewage Pipelines or the Padang Merdeka Hotel. Cool~~ Right? I was so delighted when I heard from him. Common... this two projects are the current hot projects in Kuching. Whichever it is gonna be, I got alots to learn from it and proud to be part of the people involve. Congratulate me!!! Hahaha...
Anyways, let skip the studies. Holidays Holidays... YEah!!! but boring though... last night had fun with friends at pub. Well, first time be in this place. Musics is great (because it is Techno). Second, it is quite boring anyway because the musics are too loud and can hardly have communication. Then only can drink and play cards and dance around by self awhile (Last nite wasnt full, I wonder if it were full then will I go and dance around the ladies?? LOL).
Of cause in the end got drunk, vomited here and there. Horrible cleaning ofcause this morning. Haha... I was so drunk that this whole day I felt dizzy. Anymore next time?? Well, I dont think I gonna join again. Besides from the physically suffering, mental suffering too drops its part here. Hehe... sorry Bong if you saw this. =P
Oh ya, remember the old guy I mentioned on early posts before. I finally met him again. This time, I bought the biscuit from him. Yeah... finally able to help him make a day. But but.... his stuffs are pricey. UNCLE!!! Y NEED TO SELL SO PRICEY. LIKE THAT WHERE GOT PEOPLE WANNA BUY FROM U!!! sigh... ofcoz i didnt say this out... Haha... True right?
Hm... what else I wanna say here. Before this I had alots to say and thought of putting in my blog. Now I needa recall... haha... anyways, let post some other time.
So end of today post. Enjoy holidays ~
~Desmond 1.17am 061209~
My Birthday in 1.5 hrs time.
less than 80mins to my 24th Birthday... LOL... old already. Wonder what to wish for myself this time. I can't really remember what did I wish last year. Hm... haha... totally forgot. Maybe it was this "I wish I will have a girlfriend to celebrate to me next year." LOL... I did make that wish before, but don't really remember was it last year or not. Haha...
Anyway, even if that was my wish, I don't think it ever came true. =P But, you know. Get use to it already. Now thinking of it, I don't really need a girlfriend through. I like the way I live now. Freedom, easy accessible by friends, can save money to buy things I want and blah blah blah...
Few days ago, I was already celebrated with an advance birthday dinner by my friend. At first thought my friend had something wanna tell me on that dinner and who knows after the dinner, surprised me with a birthday cake. I was like... shocked, wordless... and touched. My friend really did surprise me on that dinner. Later after dinner, another surprise again. This time, it was the birthday present. Wow.... I can tell you, this was the night full of surprises. Honestly, I am really touched on it.
Here are 2 pic of the memorable night.
Now... Less than an hour to my birthday. Haha... why do I blog it this time. I seldom pay too much attention on my birthday. Each time, I will normally just on my bed and make a wish. LOL... but 2nite... hm... beg Im gonna do it in frt of assignments. Haha... anyway. Off to do asgmt now. Tomorrow gonna post more pic of my bday celebration. =P
~Desmond 11.13pm 061009~
New Desmond??
Hm... I dunno wadz wrong wit me lately. I've been trying to change my appearances, my clothing, my hairstyle and everything that I wish to make a change. Ofcoz not changing my sex, LOL.
One of the reason can be due to the imcoming prom nite. I'm trying to giv a perfect image during the nite. Another reason could b lately absorbing too many stress and thinking.
Ofcoz, life is full with studies and assignments. However, lately, something hav been catching on my mind, torturing me, circulating my and ruining my mood. I'm not sure this could b a misunderstanding or not. But I hope it was. Sometime, being too good to a person could really lead to some kinda misunderstanding. Ofcoz... particularly b nice to a female friends. There was once I experienced the same feeling, now... it happens again. Oh, common... being nice to you doesn't mean I wanna like u. Haha... Anyway, the thing that bothering me is that... YOU ARE TRYING TO AVOID ME!!! Sigh... I really wish to explain to u. BUt ofcoz... explain too much could lead more to misunderstanding. Nah... nvm now... juz let it be natural. See how it goes with time. Maybe in future, it will be the other way round. HAHA...
Talk abt changing, I'm having a new hairstyle, trying to wear more classy look, kinda like wanna follow the Korean and Japanese fashion trend. Went for shopping laz Sat, bought a shirt and a trouser from SUB, cost me about RM250. T.T Damn... becoz of this prom nite, I pokai liao... lol. Juz now Ah Bong teased me, "if you dont get to know a gal during the prom nite, you should be sorry for yourself." LOL... true true... Ok, Bong... I will definitely try. With new image, I ofcoz... gain a new confident to myself. =P
Wow... so late ody... anyway. Here are some of the pic I took during testing for some shirts and coats. Oh, btw... WHY THE FCUK IS THE COAT SO DAMN EXPENSIVE... and itz kinda hard to find a cheap one in Kch... sux.
Oh, I've forgotten. 2day, I did sth terribly wrong. I saw the old man again who sells biscuits (appeared in my previous post) . But... But... I didnt buy from him. I WAS SO COLD HEARTED!!! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WIT ME?? I should have bought sth from him as promised. But I didnt!!! Omg... I didnt keep my promise... sigh... now thinking back. I'm really feeling so sorry to myself. GOD, please forgive me.
~Desmond 1.32am 220909~
So sad giving away... T.T
Ya, it really sad to pass my club away. Now, I'm no more the president of the club, of my baby. LOL... due to the reasons on my study. I have no choice but to elect a new president and committee to take control of my club. However, I will still be the adviser for it. As long as I'm here in Swinburne, I will be watching it grow to be a successful club. Most important thing is to promote to all the students and give volunteering to Habitat and help the poor.
Surprisingly my new president is Rosemary. Well, I'm great that she was elected. She has the motivation to lead the club well. Previously during the build, I could really see her worked very hard. She was liked no others. She has just different with others. lol... Rosemary, if you read this (I'm dont think you are, since itz not a popular blog), I'm just telling the truth. =)
Desmond (Past President of SHFH)
1.25am 210809
Surprisingly O.O
Surprisingly... surprisingly... I can finally allow to take 5 subjects this semester. As granted by Dr. Ong. Haha... at 1st dont really putting so much hope, but then luckily after seeing thru my every sems performance, he finally allowed me. Cant belive it. Anyway, happy for it is not enough. From now on, I have to work very hard. VERY VERY HARD.
Another surprising news is that my sis has her 1st BF... I dunno if I was doing the rite thing or not by encouraging her and congratulating her. I means, since she still studying and new to her school. Is it ok to get involve in this thing? I know u may say Im old thinking, but u know... like every bro cares on his sis.
I asked about her BF... she told me he confessed to her and she juz take it. Haha... and she even gave me a lesson. "All you need is courage to earn her heart" LOL... now a sis is giving lesson to her bro how to chase gals... haha... Well, not that I dont hav the courage to win a woman's heart. Is juz that Im still dont feel like wanna get involve in relationship. Not becoz Im afraid of failure. Its juz that I wanna concentrate on my career. Just wait 1st... she will appear when the time come. Who knows tomorrow she juz appear. I dunno... I could tell... Juz... let it be natural. Haha..
Desmond 10.34pm 140809
