My Birthday in 1.5 hrs time.

less than 80mins to my 24th Birthday... LOL... old already. Wonder what to wish for myself this time. I can't really remember what did I wish last year. Hm... haha... totally forgot. Maybe it was this "I wish I will have a girlfriend to celebrate to me next year." LOL... I did make that wish before, but don't really remember was it last year or not. Haha...
Anyway, even if that was my wish, I don't think it ever came true. =P But, you know. Get use to it already. Now thinking of it, I don't really need a girlfriend through. I like the way I live now. Freedom, easy accessible by friends, can save money to buy things I want and blah blah blah...
Few days ago, I was already celebrated with an advance birthday dinner by my friend. At first thought my friend had something wanna tell me on that dinner and who knows after the dinner, surprised me with a birthday cake. I was like... shocked, wordless... and touched. My friend really did surprise me on that dinner. Later after dinner, another surprise again. This time, it was the birthday present. Wow.... I can tell you, this was the night full of surprises. Honestly, I am really touched on it.
Here are 2 pic of the memorable night.

Now... Less than an hour to my birthday. Haha... why do I blog it this time. I seldom pay too much attention on my birthday. Each time, I will normally just on my bed and make a wish. LOL... but 2nite... hm... beg Im gonna do it in frt of assignments. Haha... anyway. Off to do asgmt now. Tomorrow gonna post more pic of my bday celebration. =P

~Desmond 11.13pm 061009~

New Desmond??

Hm... I dunno wadz wrong wit me lately. I've been trying to change my appearances, my clothing, my hairstyle and everything that I wish to make a change. Ofcoz not changing my sex, LOL.
One of the reason can be due to the imcoming prom nite. I'm trying to giv a perfect image during the nite. Another reason could b lately absorbing too many stress and thinking.
Ofcoz, life is full with studies and assignments. However, lately, something hav been catching on my mind, torturing me, circulating my and ruining my mood. I'm not sure this could b a misunderstanding or not. But I hope it was. Sometime, being too good to a person could really lead to some kinda misunderstanding. Ofcoz... particularly b nice to a female friends. There was once I experienced the same feeling, now... it happens again. Oh, common... being nice to you doesn't mean I wanna like u. Haha... Anyway, the thing that bothering me is that... YOU ARE TRYING TO AVOID ME!!! Sigh... I really wish to explain to u. BUt ofcoz... explain too much could lead more to misunderstanding. Nah... nvm now... juz let it be natural. See how it goes with time. Maybe in future, it will be the other way round. HAHA...

Talk abt changing, I'm having a new hairstyle, trying to wear more classy look, kinda like wanna follow the Korean and Japanese fashion trend. Went for shopping laz Sat, bought a shirt and a trouser from SUB, cost me about RM250. T.T Damn... becoz of this prom nite, I pokai liao... lol. Juz now Ah Bong teased me, "if you dont get to know a gal during the prom nite, you should be sorry for yourself." LOL... true true... Ok, Bong... I will definitely try. With new image, I ofcoz... gain a new confident to myself. =P

Wow... so late ody... anyway. Here are some of the pic I took during testing for some shirts and coats. Oh, btw... WHY THE FCUK IS THE COAT SO DAMN EXPENSIVE... and itz kinda hard to find a cheap one in Kch... sux.






Oh, I've forgotten. 2day, I did sth terribly wrong. I saw the old man again who sells biscuits (appeared in my previous post) . But... But... I didnt buy from him. I WAS SO COLD HEARTED!!! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WIT ME?? I should have bought sth from him as promised. But I didnt!!! Omg... I didnt keep my promise... sigh... now thinking back. I'm really feeling so sorry to myself. GOD, please forgive me.

~Desmond 1.32am 220909~

So sad giving away... T.T

Ya, it really sad to pass my club away. Now, I'm no more the president of the club, of my baby. LOL... due to the reasons on my study. I have no choice but to elect a new president and committee to take control of my club. However, I will still be the adviser for it. As long as I'm here in Swinburne, I will be watching it grow to be a successful club. Most important thing is to promote to all the students and give volunteering to Habitat and help the poor.
Surprisingly my new president is Rosemary. Well, I'm great that she was elected. She has the motivation to lead the club well. Previously during the build, I could really see her worked very hard. She was liked no others. She has just different with others. lol... Rosemary, if you read this (I'm dont think you are, since itz not a popular blog), I'm just telling the truth. =)

Desmond (Past President of SHFH)
1.25am 210809

Surprisingly O.O

Surprisingly... surprisingly... I can finally allow to take 5 subjects this semester. As granted by Dr. Ong. Haha... at 1st dont really putting so much hope, but then luckily after seeing thru my every sems performance, he finally allowed me. Cant belive it. Anyway, happy for it is not enough. From now on, I have to work very hard. VERY VERY HARD.

Another surprising news is that my sis has her 1st BF... I dunno if I was doing the rite thing or not by encouraging her and congratulating her. I means, since she still studying and new to her school. Is it ok to get involve in this thing? I know u may say Im old thinking, but u know... like every bro cares on his sis.

I asked about her BF... she told me he confessed to her and she juz take it. Haha... and she even gave me a lesson. "All you need is courage to earn her heart" LOL... now a sis is giving lesson to her bro how to chase gals... haha... Well, not that I dont hav the courage to win a woman's heart. Is juz that Im still dont feel like wanna get involve in relationship. Not becoz Im afraid of failure. Its juz that I wanna concentrate on my career. Just wait 1st... she will appear when the time come. Who knows tomorrow she juz appear. I dunno... I could tell... Juz... let it be natural. Haha..

Desmond 10.34pm 140809

Final year now.

Tomorrow 10/08 starts with my final year semester 1. Can't really imagine it has been 4 years I'm a undergraduate student. With a year to go, I will be graduating and shift to career life. Still remember I ever thought of giving up my study and went to seek for job after F6. Thanks to my dad and some of my dad's friends who encouraged me to move on study. And that was how I got into Swinburne and start my dream as an Civil Engineer. Still remember one of my dad's friend, Uncle Thomas Siah told me to study hard and don't waste my father's effort on preparing my education while we were inside his car watching my dad ran to his car. Uncle Thomas died in heart attack last two years. We are missing him so much.

Anyway, looking back on my performance. Things were not that well. I had tried so hard every semester and my results are still not very satisfying. This coming semester is my final year, I really have to try very best. Tomorrow will be needing so much luck. 1st I may need it for the approval from the Finance Department to allow me to pay my tuition fee after my loan approve. 2ndly, I'm really wish that Dr. Ong would permit me to take 5 subjects this semester. In case you don't know. I have been asking him since pervious semester. Now is my second try. Really, really so hope that he can understand my situation. Plus I will be quitting my Habitat club and hand over to someone else. Or maybe just shut it down. I dunno... =( (So wish that someone for me now)

Now everyone is asking me on the timetable arrangement on this semester. Mine is so much different from them. The only reason is that I may need to attend one extra lecture. It will still be changed after tomorrow. Let wait and see how.

Today blog ends here with a feeling of nervous and hope. After this I will move on to read on tomorrow notes. Be prepared !!! THE CHALLENGES IS COMING.

Desmond 9.07pm 090809

Help once, but not always (帮得了一时，帮不到一世)

Sis will be heading to study at Nilai, Negeri Sembilan tomorrow. Flight will arrive at LCCT at about 11pm. We (my parents, sis and I) gonna stay overnite in the airport. Hopefully noone chase us out. Haha... Anyway, after tomorrow, maybe will have to wait till her holiday to meet her again... ='(

Went for farewell dinner last nite. During dinner, saw an old man walked unstable carrying an basket with some packets of biscuit inside. While on his other hand carrying a pack of biscuit, passing by a table and another asking the customers to buy. With a very low speech, people could hardly understand what he wants. Judging by the biscuit he was carrying, people in Kuching will right away know the idea. None of the customers didn't entertain him, some even didn't care about his existence. Finally, he came to our table. I was actually reaching my wallet to buy the biscuit... but a sudden instinct stopped me. An instinct of not being cheated, scare of being scolded by my mom for wasting money. Sigh... What the heck was I thinking... I should stick wit my own decision. That makes me so regret now.

Since, I was unable to buy from him. I greeted him with a smile and politely shake my head. He knew the result and walked away without saying anything. T.T I'm feeling so bad abt this....

After few minutes of walking around all the shop houses, the old man came back to our table. This time, I was not gonna let the chance go away. However, my sis told me something which stopped me. She said even if u help now, u still can't help him tomorrow. =( That's true.... I dont have enough power to stop this from happening.

All I can do now is trying to do as much charity and help as much as I can. Next time, after my retirement, I will open a restaurant and special treatment will be given to the poor. Free drinks, free meals... whatever they want.

Anyway, now thinking back. I should help him instead. Maybe one sell of a pack of biscuit can earn him some money for himself or his family. Feel so sad and regret.

~Desmo~
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Try To Do = Never Give Up

This is very meaningful. Specially delicate to my parents and friends who always there to give their helps whenever I'm in need. =)
Thanks for the support. I will NEVER GIVE UP!!