Help once, but not always (帮得了一时，帮不到一世)

Sis will be heading to study at Nilai, Negeri Sembilan tomorrow. Flight will arrive at LCCT at about 11pm. We (my parents, sis and I) gonna stay overnite in the airport. Hopefully noone chase us out. Haha... Anyway, after tomorrow, maybe will have to wait till her holiday to meet her again... ='(

Went for farewell dinner last nite. During dinner, saw an old man walked unstable carrying an basket with some packets of biscuit inside. While on his other hand carrying a pack of biscuit, passing by a table and another asking the customers to buy. With a very low speech, people could hardly understand what he wants. Judging by the biscuit he was carrying, people in Kuching will right away know the idea. None of the customers didn't entertain him, some even didn't care about his existence. Finally, he came to our table. I was actually reaching my wallet to buy the biscuit... but a sudden instinct stopped me. An instinct of not being cheated, scare of being scolded by my mom for wasting money. Sigh... What the heck was I thinking... I should stick wit my own decision. That makes me so regret now.

Since, I was unable to buy from him. I greeted him with a smile and politely shake my head. He knew the result and walked away without saying anything. T.T I'm feeling so bad abt this....

After few minutes of walking around all the shop houses, the old man came back to our table. This time, I was not gonna let the chance go away. However, my sis told me something which stopped me. She said even if u help now, u still can't help him tomorrow. =( That's true.... I dont have enough power to stop this from happening.

All I can do now is trying to do as much charity and help as much as I can. Next time, after my retirement, I will open a restaurant and special treatment will be given to the poor. Free drinks, free meals... whatever they want.

Anyway, now thinking back. I should help him instead. Maybe one sell of a pack of biscuit can earn him some money for himself or his family. Feel so sad and regret.

~Desmo~
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